Week 19 – Day 0

The first half of this pregnancy is coming to an end this week. Still no movement which I’m really bummed about. It the baby just a bit slow?? Is my placenta at the front and blocking off all the feeling?? Does it not like moving?!

Really can’t wait til my next scan! Time is so slow sometimes!!

Week 18 – Day 4

Let’s do a little summary bulletin:

  • I put on weight! Finally! One whole kilo
  • I’m meeting a fellow pregnant person for a coffee next week. Mixed feelings about this, but keeping an open mind
  • Still not feeling any movement in there
  • Still undecided about finding out the gender, but got two weeks to make up my mind
  • Lower back pain plus tailbone(!) ache is becoming more prominent
  • My gag reflex is super sensitive… like brushing my teeth and having the toothbrush too far in my mouth makes me want to throw up

Week 18 – Day 3

We’re steadily approaching the half way mark. My app says we’re 46.5% done with baking the baby!

This weekend was really super fun with Orsi and Anna over visiting! So so nice to hang out and catch up, but I can really feel the effect today! Almost falling asleep in work!!

The heat is also contributing I think to the very tired and lethargic feeling I’m having. Shame I have so much to do, so I can’t really take it easy… But on the upside it’s only a week and a bit til I get a mini break!

This week’s bump: 

Fairly unchanged I think? I’m gonna get Dave to take some nicer pictures every couple of weeks from now that we can have to look back at afterwards!

Week 17 – Day 5

Thank the heavens, there is some hope in this world. In the midst of worry that I will have abandon my child at 6 months, Dave came home with some wonderful news! Seems the world of academia is more progressive after all, and he gets up to 26 weeks leave where he only has to work two days a week, but still gets 80% pay! That means that our previous savings goals where we only live off one salary for 2.5 months is totally doable, and we can be home with Justin until his 1st birthday!

On another note, I enter month number 5 tomorrow, so not long before we start counting down rather than up!

Week 17 – Day 4

We had our first daycare visit today, as our midwife recommended that we start and sign up early to make sure we get a place where we want. Before I walked in we’d talked about timing and things like that and agreed that at 6 months I’d start going back to work and we’d do maybe two days a week of childcare. It’s so expensive here so just two days would cost us around 600 euros per month! Anyway, after seeing the place today and talking to the staff I feel like I never want to leave my child in the care of others.

I don’t know why, but looking at the little babies in there it just felt wrong to the core that they were not with one of their parents. Now don’t get me wrong, I understand that for some people there is no choice financially, and it’s not like parental leave here is generous… that’s a whole issue on it’s own. Also, there was nothing actually wrong with the place itself. Plenty of staff that are well trained, small separated groups and it felt safe and all that… but something about it just really hit me in the wrong way.

When a child is still that young doesn’t it need the immediate physical closeness to an adult who is not distracted by other things? Doesn’t it need an actual parent who loves it and care for it, and give it their attention…? We both walked out of there just feeling like “no” not for us. But then we’re stuck in the situation of, can we actually survive on one salary for 6-9 months? How much would we need in savings to live? How would it work with our employers, considering most mothers are back in work in 3 months, and most fathers don’t take any leave at all… and then we turn around and say we want 6 months each..? How forgiving and flexible would they be?

Much to think about, but it still feels like all other things like career and jobs are less important then the welfare of your own child.

Week 17 – Day 3

The weekend got better yesterday, but still feel like Saturday was totally wasted.

Still no feelings of movement in there, but definitely a more noticeable bump!

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Look at that! A proper round belly haha! Feeling just pretty chubby though, but hoping I’ll get used to it!

This week, and actually every week now until the end of summer will be really intense work wise. I really hope I can keep up with the pace… Hate it when I fall behind and then just get more stressed out about it.

Week 17 – Day 1

What a blip of a day. I’ve felt so off, deflated, weak and down. It’s so nice and sunny outside and all I’ve done is move from the bed to the sofa and had a couple of cries. It must be a hormonal thing, cause I can’t explain it in any other way…

According to all the info out there this week is supposedly the most common week to start feeling the baby moving around. I’m not sure what to expect at all, and I can’t imagine what it would feel like, but I’m assuming I’ll know when it happens.

Uhrg… I just want this day to end and hope that tomorrow is better :/