Week 32 – Day 0

Oh mai gawd, 55 days to go. I didn’t check the app all week cause have been so busy, and this morning when we did the usual week check it says 55 days. It’s was only just 100, and 90, and 80..?!

The pram finally arrived tho, or well, one part of the pram, and the other should come in a couple of weeks, so still in good time. This means that pretty much every big item is ticked off the list! The room itself is still a bit chaotic, but that can be sorted out little bits at the time over the coming weekends 🙂 Still deciding whether to spend quite a substantial amount of money on a massive wall mural, or to DIY it and paint some mountains on ourselves. Some of the murals we’ve seen look insane and it would be so cool to have them. On the other hand we could save quite a bit by doing a paint job ourselves which I think would still look pretty cool (if we plan it out well!)

Tomorrow we’re heading to a baby shower in Rotterdam which will be nice 🙂 I don’t think I’ve ever been to one before!

And this week’s bump pic:




Week 31 – Day 6

It’s been a busy week! Dutch classes on Monday and Thursday evenings, pre-natal course on Tuesdays, and the weekend was fully of doing things and getting the baby room sorted. Feels nice to be a bit more effective, but tiring too.

Yesterday we did an inventory of a the clothes we have, and put stuff into drawers, we’re quite covered for the beginning, but a couple of things are still missing, so will need to get those over the next month. And of course we need to actually continue with and finish off the baby room!

This week’s pre-natal course talked a lot about pain, and it was actually really interesting, and got me thinking quite a lot. The woman explained about the components of pain; the physical pain itself which is made up of the intensity and the duration, the brain’s interpretation of that pain, and then the psychological component which contributes to how we perceive the pain. For example, if you’ve had previous traumas involving pain, then your mind is already expecting it to be unbearable… So I was thinking about what kind of pain I’ve experience and how I’ve felt about it… Overall I can’t say that I’ve been through many physically painful experiences in my life, which I’m very happy about. But even the ones that I have been through, are probably not comparable to birth.

For example…. tattoos? So the most painful one I had was the one on my thigh. Not because of any one component, but the duration (5 hours), in combination with the type of needle used (colouring – so very scratchy, rather than lining), and the location of my upper thigh which is quite sensitive. I remember thinking at the end, that if it lasted for more than another 5-10 minutes, I’d have to give up and ask him to stop. But then I was having this thought for well more than the last hour. I guess this means, that if i break the pain down into more manageable chunks (whether they are realistic or not), it helps me cope for that pre-defined time period. Now with contractions, the peak of pain is only a couple of seconds at the time, so maybe it’ll be helpful to keep that in mind, when it’s at its worse.

The other painful(ish) experience I came to think about was marathon training and running, and even all those times I’ve ran a half-marathon while being a tad unprepared. For the marathon it’s the sheer exhaustion and aching of the legs, and as for being unprepared, it’s usually my knee that starts hurting first. Whenever it’s been too painful to run it’s always been possible to push through for a little longer, or walk for a bit and finish the race anyway, and the feeling in the end makes you forget very quickly what you’ve been through. For the long term tiredness of a marathon, and keeping going for hours when you want to stop, I guess the preparation is the main thing, and again, the totally ecstatic feeling at the end. So the parallel to childbirth here I guess is that I’m preparing (by learning about it), and that the feeling in the end will make it worthwhile.

All in all some very interesting thoughts have been prompted, and although I still feel like I have no idea what to expect, and I’m in no way going to underestimate the pain, I do think that it’s going to be doable.

Week 31 – Day 2

Busy weekend sorting out the flat and baby room! Got new shelves up in the living room which means the kallax unit in the old office is now empty and ready for drawers for the baby clothes and blankets and all other baby related things. 

Today a trip to IKEA is on the cards, and hopefully we’ll find everything we need 🙂 

The bump pic is from yesterday: 

I’m starting to reach the stage where for time to time I’m really feeling fed up and done with being preggo… Miss 85% of my wardrobe and buying new things and fitting in to normal size gaps. Two more months to go! 

Week 30 – Day 6

Lots of posting this week, cause of lots of thoughts! We started the pre-natal course on Tuesday, and it really hit home that we’re going to have a baby soon. Like a real person. There was a lot of information and it was a tad overwhelming, but also very enlightening, as she covered things about the Dutch healthcare system that I had no clue on.

In terms of people the crowd seems nice, probably some couple in there that I would get along with on a personal level. Need to feel them out a bit more.

I’m also noticing how now when there’s only 2 months left, I’m mentally starting to really get fed up with this. I want it to be over and done with soon. I want my old body back, and my old clothes, and the freedom of movement. So very surely counting down now. 63 days to go before due date.

Week 30 – Day 4

My string of less than perfect pregnancy continued the night to yesterday and yesterday. Haven gotten back from Ireland, I spent the hours between 1 am and 9 am running to and from the toilet. Most probably not pregnancy related, but still very not nice. I’m a bit better today and back in work, but could really have done without that whole ordeal as it’s left my body in a bit of a pain-y state.

On a more exciting note, me and Dave are going to our first lesson of the pre-natal class we’re taking. Five weeks in a row on Tuesday we’ll be learning (hopefully) everything we need to know about giving birth, breathing, breastfeeding and keeping a baby alive! Very excited to see what it’ll be like, and also excited to meet other people who are pregnant who will hopefully be nice and easy to get along with!

Week 30 – Day 2

Waiting for the flight back from Dublin. Last flight this year. Last flight as not a mother. I have nothing against being just in one place when it’s my choice, but there are still so many things I want to plan in and do and now I actually can’t. 

My last post about how everything was easy backfired a bit! On Friday we went out for a meal and I massively over ate (and it was quite oily which didn’t help). Later that evening I kept burping up all the food into my mouth and I tried to speak at the same time so sort of choked on the half food half vomit :/ then as I was coughing loads I full on wee’d myself. Not just a little drizzle, but full on wet patch all over the crotch! Daym. 

Lessons learned: Do not over eat! It’s uncomfortable for hours afterwards, I end up burping up sick, and potentially choking on it. 

Anyway, here’s a delayed bump pic from Friday! The internet in the middle of nowhere in Ireland was really bad.

Less than six more weeks of work, and ten more weeks of this! Time to properly start nesting, so this week and next me and Dave will be aiming to get the baby room fully sorted! 

Week 29 – Day 5

I’m almost a little bit scared of writing this, in case I jinx it all, but this pregnancy has really been above all expectations so far in terms of how I’m feeling. Yes, I’ve been tired, and yes I’ve had a bit of back pain… but when I compare it to the “list of symptoms” I “should” be having at this stage, it’s nothing! I still cycle to work and back every day, I can still walk for hours as I did over the weekend in Cologne, I’m still travelling without feeling exhausted. I guess my general pace is a tad slower, but I really do feel like I’m not even pregnant some of the time.

We had a very quick check up with the midwife yesterday. Blood pressure is good, uterus is a good size, baby is a good size, baby’s heart beat is solid, iron levels are above average which is awesome. She said that the baby is positioned head downward already which is really good, and that she is quite far back in the uterus, which is why I’m not having so much back pain, cause the strain is a lot less. Thank you little one, for being so good already! I really hope this continues!

Things for the “generic week 30 list” that I’m definitely NOT missing:

  • Acute back pain and not being able to walk/sit for long periods – Been walking loads and have been totally fine
  • Swollen feet – nope, shoes still fit!
  • Sleeping badly – not really, even on the sofa bed over the weekend I was comfy. The exception was the mosquito in our room two nights ago, but can’t really put that on the baby
  • Leaky boobs – hasn’t happened yet
  • Hemorrhoids(!) – thankfully no! Lord praise the kiwi!
  • Stretch marks – none so far – w00p

I don’t know if it’s pure genetics, sheer luck, or if I was actually in decent shape strength wise before this, but either way, with my mum’s nightmare stories, I’m so extremely thankful that it’s going so well. Just figured I should write this down in case it all goes to shit in the last two months. So that I will remember that it was actually not so bad for most of it!