Week 35 – Day 4

One month left! Three days left in work!

I had the most lovely weekend 🙂 It was Dave’s birthday on Saturday, but he had organised a surprise baby shower! I knew something was going on cause he’s been very inconsistent and slippery with answers about his birthday, but when I saw all the people there, and Orsi all the way from London, I got proper teary and overwhelmed! It was so nice to see everyone, and we got some brilliant stuff too! Super happy and very thankful ❤ Then on the Sunday we took the boat out and just chilled and enjoyed the awesome October weather!

Today though, I feel absolutely knackered and dead. Haha, must be the long days and late nights that have caught up with me. Gonna take it easy today, skip my Dutch class, and just relax this evening.

Tomorrow we go into month 9, and the last month of this pregnancy. It’s gone so fast up til now, but I have a feeling that once I go one leave, time will slow down a a bit. And once we have sorted through all the things we need to do, it’s just a waiting game!


Week 7 – Day 1


The weeks seem to go faster cause I’m less nervous about stuff going wrong. Entering the 8th week now! Don’t really know if there’s much to report..? Justin is now the size of a blueberry, and has started growing little nubs for legs and arms, and apparently my uterus is starting to expand to make room for the guy. This has resulted in me feeling almost constantly bloated and uncomfortable.

I still haven’t put on any weight although I feel like I ate a lot more in the last week. But all my jeans are very tight. Nothing is visible yet, and I hope it stays this way for another month, but I can feel that I take up more space.

I had a weird one yesterday when I woke up and felt 100% fine. No nausea, no sore boobs, nothing. Was super nice to feel normal for a couple of hours, although in the back of my mind there’s the nagging worry that something happened. Unreasonable I know….

I’ve been debating back an forth about the marathon this Sunday. On the one had, I’m still fine with the running bit, albeit a lot slower, and a lot more out of breath… and really do want to continue like everything is normal, and not let this limit my life. On the other hand, it’s gonna be 24 degrees in Paris, and I already overheat massively cause of Justin… AND if anything did happen, I know I would blame myself for it (even if it was totally random and scientifically not my fault). So I won;t be running… 😦 but like Orsi said, I can start training and run a marathon anytime, but I can’t really put pregnancy on hold and resume it later.

Still very much looking forward to spending all those days in Paris with Orsi and Alby though ❤ but will be super jealous of all the nice wine I’m missing out on! (the French drink while preggo don’t they? :p)

Week 4 – Day 4

Apparently Orsi sensed that something was up. I sent her a message yesterday about money for the washing machine in the London flat, and she replied saying that she thought I was gonna tell her I was pregnant!

So I figured I might as well tell her. We weren’t gonna tell anyone besides parents for a while, but she would have realised at the marathon anyway. Obviously she was super happy! Feels like everyone around me is super happy, and of course I feel lucky and privileged to be in this situation (I know there are people who really struggle to get pregnant, and there are people who don’t have the great circumstances that I do), but no “euphoria” or super joy.

At the same time it’s fascinates me so much the more I read about the development of the embryo. How all the cells are pre-programmed and how there’s already a tiny (sort of) heart in there.

PS. Cried when someone won at Pointless on the TV and again when I saw a picture of an old Dutch woman voting… Hormones??