Week 15 – Day 0

Midwife meeting yesterday went really well! Got to hear the heartbeat which was unreal! I can safely say that it blows my mind every time I think about the fact that me and Dave made this whole new person AND that it’s currently growing inside of me. For so long I felt quite ambivalent about the whole thing, but now i feel that I really do care about this baby. I want it to be healthy and happy, and I think more and more about what it’ll be like once it’s here.

The heart sounded healthy and at a good pace, and we could hear the strange sound of the fluid in there when the baby moved around. We’re gonna schedule a 20 week scan in about a months time which will be the second and last time (if everything goes well) that we’ll get to see the baby before it’s born. Very exciting!

I’ve said this before but just want to write it again… I’m so so happy about how chilled the midwives here are. I’ve read horror stories about people being told they’re doing things wrong, not gaining enough, or gaining too much weight. Being told to take loads of supplements and do all these crazy things. And there absolutely nothing of that here. She hasn’t weighed me once since I registered, there’s been nothing else than “do you feel ok?”, “are you worried about anything?” and this has really help so much in giving me an extremely casual attitude about all this. With all the recommendations online, it’s really nice to have a trained voice of reason who tells me that it’s actually ok to just go with the flow, and if it feels ok, it’s probably ok. And that women have loads of different rules in different countries and it’s not gonna be the end of the world if you have some parma ham, or a sip of beer or a slightly pink steak.

Still feeling good with the body and all, and this long weekend is being spent pimping the balcony! Cleaned the whole thing + big summer clean of the flat yesterday. Today (in 10 minutes) we’re doing IKEA and garden centre trip, and we’re having people over for BBQ on Sunday. Then I’m hoping that the weather will allow me to spend the next 3 months chilling on the balcony!!

Week 8 – Day 6

Hello 🙂 two days with parents here and I’m exhausted! Been sick for several days in a row now, not a trend I’d like to continue. Tomorrow we enter week 10, double digits and at the end of next week we’re on quarter of the way through!

The meeting with the midwife went super well, and she was really nice and relaxed and explained everything perfectly. I think it helps me a lot that they generally have such a relaxed attitude towards everything. It means that I also keep calm about stuff. One thing that got brought up that neither me or Dave had thought of before is the pre-natal testing that they offer. It’s up to us whether we want them or not, and she said about 50% of couples do chose to get it done.

Basically they take blood samples and analyse for chromosome variations, like Downs syndrome and some more rare things. The thing is…. for our age and medical history the odds are super super low, and if it turns out that the likelihood is high… then what? The midwife said that couples who get the tests done have already decided that they would abort the baby if something was wrong… but I’m not sure that I would? It’s such a morally sensitive issue to me. If you abort because of a likelihood of Downs, is that not the same as saying that people with Downs syndrome has less of a right to life?

If we’re not gonna change our minds about having the baby either way, then what benefit does knowing have? I’m very confused about the whole thing… But got another 10 days to figure it out, before the next meeting, and regular blood tests and the scan!

Will take a first belly pic tomorrow!

Week 8 – Day 4

All quiet for a week, and no pic for Week 8! I’ve been in Paris for 5 days. Originally it was to run the marathon, but in the end just for cheering on Orsi and Alby plus chilling out for a couple of days. They both did incredibly well, and I’m super proud, and it made me so jealous! Will really need to sign up for a marathon again once Justin is here.

We’re almost a full two months gone (on Saturday), and today is the first midwife meeting! I’m not sure whether they’ll do a scan or not, as sometimes it’s just a chat the first time… or so I’m told. But I figured I’ll start doing actual pictures of belly from this Sunday, as we’ll be entering month 3! Fun times.

The nausea is still as usual. Was only sick once in Paris, and once more this morning… it comes and goes, but I think I have it pretty ok in comparison to many other stories I’ve read about. Fingers crossed it doesn’t get worse!

I’m gonna tell close friends and family this week and next, and then bosses and other work people in a couple of weeks I think.

Both families are coming over for Easter which will be super fun, but I’m also expecting it to be quite tiring… We shall see how it goes. At least everyone knows about Justin so so pretending. That was one thing that was so nice this weekend in Paris as well! No pretending 🙂 Actually can’t wait til more people know!

Week 7 – Day 4

I am tired all the time. The last couple of days I’ve struggled to stay awake until 9 pm, and in work I’m getting looks from people because of the constant yawning. I sort of wish I could just tell people so that I have a genuine excuse for not feeling on top all the time. I’m less social and I’m constantly trying to hide the fact that I feel sick. It’s exhausting. I just want to exhale, let my bloated tummy go, and tell people to fuck off.

I’m also getting increasingly uncomfortable in my clothes. Even wearing tights feels like it’s pushing inward too much. But I don’t want to buy pregnancy clothes yet… I think if it gets a bit warmer in the next week I can get away with loose dresses and no tights. That should work as an in between.

With all this tiredness and bloatedness I’ve been up for absolutely nothing. I come home from work, and all plans of easy run/yoga/strength etc. are quickly exchanged for sitting on sofa and falling asleep. Such a bad cycle, as I know that actually doing something will improve my energy.

Good things:

  • Two more days, then Paris 🙂 then family 🙂 which = 10 days of being around people who know!
  • One week until the first midwife meeting! I hope they combine it with the scan, so that I hopefully get a better sense of reality.